After five solid years as a SAHM, I am transitioning back to work.
Two weeks ago, I put my youngest baby in daycare. My oldest was already in daycare. For the last few days, I’ve been home alone, or at Starbucks on my laptop, or running errands that are much easier to do without toddlers in tow.
AND IT FEELS AMAZING!!!
Somedays I feel like skipping down the street. Other days I’m hunkered over my laptop at a new coffee shop I’ve found, where apparently there are legions of other people doing the same thing, fueled by caffeine, working working working.
I will admit, initially, I had a bit of mom guilt. I worried about how the daycare provider was handling my two-year-old’s food allergies to dairy and eggs and if she would have been better off under my watchful eyes. I wondered if I should teach her Spanish myself, instead of hoping my Dominican daycare provider would just speak her native tongue to my child.
But the guilt dissipated after a few days. Because I needed a break–from my two-year-old and the never-ending demands of motherhood.
There comes a point and time in Motherhood when you have to get back to who you are, when you start to think more about crafting a life and an identity outside of your kids. [Read more…]